Until When

When did we start
To look for each other
To find one another
To have each other’s back
Waiting to come home
Asking for a smile
As if it can make your day
As if it can make you fall
Deep into the ground
So deep that you can
Sleep soundly tonight
And nothing to worry at all

When did we start
Going out every night
Having late night talks
Laughing at each other’s thought
Having late night walks
Looking at sleeping birds
Drinking coffees and teas
Having deep thoughts yet
Also talking nonsense at all
Slowly tapping each fingers
Glancing, flicking, and dancing
As if the time will be still
As if it is ours to take

When did we start
Waiting for you until midnight
Or until the sun rises above
When everyone else’s asleep
Meeting each other behind
The close doors and blind spots
Having late night dinners
Making each other’s coffee and tea
Listening to each other’s voices
Letting out frustrations
Confiding in small secrets
Admiring each other’s soul
When you’re looking at me as if
I’m the most beautiful in the world.

When did I start
Having questions at night
When I’m in my bed
When I’m all alone
As if I’m seeking answers
To an endless examination

When did I start
Looking for more and more
From the moment I open my eyes
To the time I started to fall
When I vowed to stay
And understand you at all

When did I start
Unselfishly loving you
Without asking anything in return
When I said I am complete
But still new to this call
I can’t help but be hurt

When did you start
Not calling me at all
Like how you used to
Say these beautiful words
When I’m in doubt
When I’m about to fall

When did you start
Feeling exhausted to the point
That it’s taxing you
Draining your body and soul
That those eyes so bright
They don’t shine anymore

When did we start
Caressing each other’s back
But feel sorry and alone
When the love that we have
Is not reaching anymore
From the small mistakes
To bigger issues
To things that can’t be undone
To things that can’t be said
Going circles and circles
Looking at each other’s faces
With wounds yet to heal
Lost and without answers
Confusions that are hard to deal
To which you respond
Only space and time can speak
To which I responded
Nothing but distress
And yours is silence
May it be dismay or tiredness

Until when do we start again
From loving and falling back
To each other’s arms again
Having winning smiles and confidence
Embracing each other’s differences
Singing at the top of our lungs
Driving past the city lights
Holding each other hands
So tight that I can’t break
So tight that I feel secured
So tight that you and me
Can triumph each battles
That we face alone
To the nights that we shared
To the paths that we crossed
To the places that we’ve seen
I want them to have it all
The prayers, the signs, the moments
The whole and fuller you
For the serene and blissful me.

How Does the World Treat You So Far?

How does the world treat you so far?
Am I doing my best?
Am I stuck in the moment?
Or am I moving forward?
A thought just appeared on my head.
Am I getting late?
Am I bearing the consequences?
Or am I just walking without any direction?
The hardest part in trying is being left alone.
One would stand, two will fall.
Count three to four, you still lose it all.
Am I getting near?
Or am I getting lost?
Nothing seems to be working at my pace.
The more I think, the more anxious I am.
The days are near, but dreams seem too unreachable.
Am I being afraid?
Am I being too scared?
Or am I just losing my confidence?
The world will never treat you fair.
How scary our world is?
I don't really know.
You just gotta find a blooming flower in the midst of withering plants.
Look out for birds singing in the middle of a busy city.
Am I going to find it?
Or am I just gonna wander?
When it's hard,
When it's heavy,
When it's being difficult,
When the world seems unfair,
I just need to close my eyes and find myself.
Gather up the courage.
It's not bad to start again.
There's nothing wrong in going left.
I don't have to answer all the questions.
It's always been unfair from the start.
I just gotta seize the moment when it's right in my hand.
Be anxious.
Be afraid.
But never lose yourself.

Paglipas

Lumipas na ang mga araw ng pagiisip

Sa kung paano ko ipapabatid sa iyo kung gaano ako naging masaya

Sa mga araw at gabi na kasama kita

Lumipas na ang mga araw ng pagiisip

Sa kung paano ko ihahatid sa iyo ang mga piraso ng mga alaala

Na siyang bumuo sa akin sa twina

Naging inspirasyon, lakas at pagtitika

Lumipas na ang mga araw ng pagiisip

At ngayon ay magtatapos na sa apat na taong pagugol

Sa pangarap na patuloy na inaabot

Bukas makalawa mawawala na rin

At bubuo ng bagong yugto kung saan ay wala ka

Dahil lilipas rin ang mga araw ng pagiisip

At maglaon ay hindi na ikaw ang tatakbo sa isipang ito.

Nakakapagod Rin Pala

Nakakapagod rin pala.

Ang nakakabinging katahimikan.

Sa tuwing nagkakaroon ng hindi pagkakaunawaan.

Hindi magiimikan.

Hindi magkatinginan.

Ipinapasa ang dapat sa iyo’y siyang sinasabi na.

Nabubuhol ang mga salitang hindi maibulong.

Yumuyuko; tumitingin sa ibang direksyon.

Nakakapagod rin pala.

Iyong maghintay sa hindi naman darating na.

Sa palaging pagtanong kung ‘nasaan ka na?’

O kung bakit ‘wala ka pa?’

At sa puntong susuko ka na;

Kakaantay sa mga pangakong walang natupad ni isa.

Sa pagantay masambit ang salitang ‘sorry’.

At sa mga bagay na hindi na mangyayari pa.

Nakakapagod rin pala.

Ang magmahal ng paulit-ulit.

Na hanggang ngayon ay siyang ipinipilit.

Umiibig ng tahimik.

Umiibig ng mata’y nakapikit.

Umiibig ng walang hinihinging kapalit.

Umiibig ng hindi sinasadya.

Ngunit sa huli’y masasaktan ng pag-aakala.

Nakakapagod rin pala.

Ang mga bagay na sa imahinasyon lamang masaya.

Na akala’y makakapagantay pa.

Sa huli ay masasambit na mahal kita.

Ngunit hindi kayang ikaw ay makasama.

Pipikit at pagkaraan ng ilang segundo’y pipikit muli.

Ititikom ang bibig.

Ititikom nalang hanggang huli.

Regrets

The thing I regret the most.
It was the precious moments I have never spent.
The time I never thought of making it special.
The moment you were there.
And the time I was lost.
The thing I regret the most;
Was the effort I have exerted.
All the pain and tears I never speak up.
The effort it was be,
And hopeless I am still.
The dream that shattered into pieces.
Of flying colors above the sky.
It was the thing I regret the most.
You were there.
And I was here.
I looked at you like how I thought of being with you.
The dream I felt was so real.
It will all end with regrets and tears.

Gusto Ko Lamang Magsulat

Gusto ko lamang magsulat.

Hanggang ang mga daliri ko ay sumakit,

At manlabo ang mga mata ko sa puyat

Na hawak ang pluma’t papel sa pagpikit.

Gusto ko lamang magsulat.

Umupo sa isang sulok at mangarap.

Sumulat hanggang sa ako’y maubusan

Nang mga salitang hindi na mahanap.

Gusto ko lamang magsulat.

Gumunita ng masayang alaala.

O, alalahanin muli ang mga sakit

At lahat ng mga ito’y manunumbalik.

Gusto ko lamang magsulat.

Na mayroong simula, gitna at wakas.

Mga kwentong may kabuluhan; mapangahas

At anurin ng mga ideyang kakaiba.

Gusto ko lamang magsulat.

At mabigyang buhay ang bawat titik.

Magalit, sumigaw, magwala ng sakit.

Maging masaya, sumubok; lumigaya.

Titignan Kita

Titignan kita.

At aking huhulihin ang iyong mga mata.

Na para bang mapapako ang tingin,

At unti-unting mahuhulog sa akin.

 

Titignan kita.

Ngunit ikaw’y iiwas din.

Na parang ayaw mapukaw ang tingin,

At hindi malaman ang gagawin.

 

Titignan kita.

Ngingiti na bahagya lang ang makikita.

Titingala at mapapamulsa.

Saka naman’y magpapahuli sa akin, sinta.

IF

If

If there is only a chance to say what I feel

I would buy a time just to explain my feelings

I would go through all the obstacles

And I hope it will reach you.

 

If only I have the right to own every seconds with you

I will never give up on it

And hold unto it until the very end

Because every seconds with you is a chance for me

 

If I can only make my universe

There’s only me and you and the people who are beside us

And all the happy memories will bound there

And we will live a life of happiness

 

If I could only change your mind

And then I will let them see me through

I will make every minute a forever

And forever will be eternity

 

If only I can make my dreams turn into reality

And reality will be you

I will be the happiest human on earth

Living with no regrets as this poem ends

MULI

MULI.

 

Ika’y bumalik, naramdaman muli ang yakap mo’t halik.

Sa bisig mo, ako’y nakatanim

Muli na naman kitang mamahalin.

 

Sa bawat oras na lumipas, Buwan o taon man ang kumupas

Ni hinding hindi ko nilimot sinta, yaong kislap sa iyong mga mata

Na sa tuwing magkasama, sa akin lang nakatama.

 

Saglit lang ng ako’y iyong nagawang paibigin.

O, saglit lang rin ng nagawa mo akong limutin.

Ng hindi man lang sa akin nagsabi kung bakit ako’y nagawang paalisin.

 

Kay tagal kitang hinintay.

At ngayo’y walang pasabing ika’y nagbalik sa akin.

Muli na naman kitang iibigin.

 

Muli, napaikot ang aking mundo

At siyang sa iyo lamang ito.

Muling haplusin ang pag-ibig mong pangako.

 

Patingin-tingin ni DAB

Patingin-tingin

Pangiti-ngiti, pangisi-ngisi

Wala kang maririnig

Tikom ang bibig, tinutulak ng dibdib

Kislap ng mata, sa iyo lang nakatinign.

 

Mata’y inililibot, isip ay umiikot

Nagkakalapit, nagkakalayo

May mga salitang pilit ipinapasok

Kwentuhang wag sana matapos.

 

Lingon sa gilid, kapit sa dibdib

Pikit matang nararamdaman ang sakit

Tikom ang bibig, walang masabi

Inggit na sa mata’y namumutawi.

 

Patingin-tingin, palingon-lingon

Tahimik lang na nanonood

Huwag sanang magalit, huwag sanang itikom

Hayaang pagbigyang kumatok sa iyong puso.